Fitting in--or not

This is the time of year when I'm most reminded of who--or what I am not: coupled, straight, Christian, a parent, etc. Especially as this year comes to a close, a year of loss as well as some celebration, a year in which I've been reminded, over and over again, of the passing of time--and who adjusted the speed dial to "high?" Still, I guess the flip side of that notion that life is brief is a tendency to cherish the good days and close friendships I do have, and to know that the more difficult times will pass as well.

And so, even though I'm currently pining for the idea of a boyfriend, (the real thing might not match the images dancing in my brain), and I'm ever so conscious of being single during this holiday season, I'm reminding myself to not rush through it, to make the most of the days leading up to Xmas and Chanukah. I will use my 10 day break to write and read. I will visit friends and, most of all, I'll remind myself to be thankul for my life, my generally good health, and my friends.